So I've been feeling a bit down lately. Sad, lost and with a sense that the only option is to wait until the storm passes, all the while eating chocolate to quell my feelings. And even though this whole thing started off as weather-induced (seriously, two weeks of consistently murky weather will eventually screw with anyone's mind) I now wonder "why am I feeling so miserable?" and "what exactly am I waiting for?" Because when you think of it there is absolutely nothing in my life that cannot be changed (or begin to be changed) if I so wish AND if I have the willpower to see it through.
Worried about my weight? - keep a food journal and cut the sugar intake.
Unhappy with my body? - more trips to the gym and more yoga.
Troubled mind? - write it all out and practice even more yoga, even resort to self-help books if necessary.
Dissatisfied with my job? - start job hunting again.
Feeling lost career-wise? - make a pro/con list and just pick something!
Anything going less well my relationship? - accept that cohabiting with another person comes with the occasional bumps and bruises, smile and talk it all out and listen to the other side. The occasional present helps too!
Falling behind on my reading list? - open a book.
Need some perk me up? - Do some nesting around the house, some gardening or small home improvement projects, get the dresses and nice shoes out of the closet and dress up a little.
And overall just smiling helps a great deal.
And there! I just solved my life, upgraded my whole present existence, in about half a dozen sentences. And I don't even remember what was holding me up in the first place. Why in God's good name was I waiting for a sign or a magical solution to problems that only I could fix? How did I let myself get so caught up in my problems that I didn't even see the solution to all of it was staring me in the face the whole time? This calls for some serious mental changes. Another time though! For now lets just take all the break-through and sleep on it. Really. Bed. Now.
